Starting weight: 240
Current weight: 232
Change this week: 0
Total change: -8
Holding steady feels like a fine thing to me, given that I have not been working at all on the weight-loss endeavor AT ALL. I’ve been grateful for the fact that, despite my less-than-ideal emotional state, I haven’t been tempted to stuff myself for comfort. I’m definitely not making the healthiest choices available to me, but I’m also not coming home with a box of doughnuts and quart of milk every night. That is progress in and of itself.
I have been very socially active lately, which is both good and bad. I’ve been seeking out others as a way to cope with feeling draggy and blue, and that’s definitely helped me out. However, as I’ve written about previously, social events are notoriously difficult for me to handle from a principled-eating perspective. In these last few weeks, though, I’ve thrown the weight-loss thing to the wind in favor of getting my emotional feet under me again, so I’ve really not been thinking at all about the caloric effects of socializing.
It feels like it might be time to start expecting some things from myself again. It also feels like I might be at a place where exerting some control over my eating and re-establishing some small goals will help me feel like I’m moving forward.
So. Small goals. I liked the goal of taking the stairs at work, which I have completely abandoned in the last few weeks. I also want to re-establish the habit of taking my lunch to work, which has fallen by the wayside recently along with the stair-climbing. I feel silly about setting these wee little micro-goals, but I’m aware that I’m the person who let her mail pile up all last week and didn’t check her voicemail because she just couldn’t cope with the possibility that someone might want her to do something. I’m wanting to maximize the chances of success, so I think it’s best to keep it small.
Sigh. Well, it’s all about setting off down the road again, right?
Oh, and guess what? Tomorrow’s my birthday. I’m 41. Let’s hear it for good friends who want to take you out to dinner, even when you’re in kind of a cranky place!
And thank you to all of you, too. I so appreciate the messages of support, and the honesty that you all bring to your own blogs. It’s such a freakin’ relief every time one of you says “Yeah, me too.” Thanks for sharing yourselves with me.
2 comments:
It's 10 pm here on the west coast and unless I've screwed up the time difference (again) that should mean it's midnight in the Midwest and already your birthday so let me be the first in blogland to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Like you I've been trying to get myself straightened out on a mental/emotional level and haven't been working on the physical improvement stuff at all for awhile. Slowly though I am begining to feel like I can start to work on that again. I think if you can get the spirit willing the flesh will follow :).
WE SHALL OVERCOME!! lol
-Meegan (a happy wife)
Sometimes it is all you can do to hang on for the ride and try not to hurt yourself. You are doing a great job, Luna. You could have got donuts - but you didn't and that is something to be proud of! Unfortunatley I completely fell of the wagon on the weekend with a spectacular beer binge with friends and associated 'fat bastard' food accompaniments. Not proud.
By the way - HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *throws streamers and blows whistle* Sorry I am running a little bit late for it but I hope you had nothing short of a brilliant day and onwards to a brilliant year. :D XXXXXXXXX
Post a Comment